In Search of a Thrill

I’ve been feeling a bit restless lately. It’s not that my life is boring or nothing is going on, quite the contrary in fact, but perhaps I need a break from the mundane and all the obligations. Often I feel pulled in a million directions and at times I have the realization that many of the things going on in my life are not there to contribute to my own well being in any way. I am a firm believer in serving others and making sacrifices for the people you love, and I honestly love to give, but it’s also nice to enjoy the fruits of my labor. Even people who love helping others need a time of refreshing to fill their tank back up when they start feeling drained.

So recently I started evaluating this longing in my spirit, and after fully assessing my emotional state, I came to the solid conclusion that I am simply in search of a thrill. Nothing so big as relocating (which I have done in the past), but perhaps more like getting excited about meeting someone new, discovering a new band, exploring a new place, trying something new, unexpected opportunities etc. Perhaps it may all seem even a bit superficial, because these aren’t the kinds of thrills that last, but they do rejuvenate the spirit and lend to further inspiration.

So how do I plan to fulfill my incessant languishing? I haven’t quite decided, but at least for now I have put my feelings to paper and wrote a song on the concept (aptly titled, “In Search of a Thrill”). After the holidays I will keep a watchful eye out for open doors, as I wouldn’t want to miss any opportunities due to complacency. As it is, I anticipate some things to take place soon that would be sure to mix things up a bit. Also, we’re planning to make some much needed changes around the house, which should also lend to a change of scenery.

Most of all I want to work through these feelings logically, because it’s easy to get in over your head when you act on impulse alone. I don’t want to invite trouble or put the progress I’ve made over the last couple years at unnecessary risk. This is why I won’t be seeking major changes, but will remain open to the possibilities that present themselves. In the meantime, I plan to enjoy the holidays to fullest and continue putting my passion to use through music.

Life is either a great adventure or nothing. – Helen Keller